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Friday, February 20, 2015
Who Cares?
Who Cares?
I feel as if I’ve hit a “brick wall” lately. I have done several interviews, more on the
calendar to do-yet, I sit in front of the computer and stare.
It was bound to happen.
Let’s face it-most writers do have some form of “block”. I’m sure I’ll shake it off and get back on
track. But right now, nothing much has
been happening!
My subjects are interesting, the questions and answers are
fine but I just sit here and stare at the processor. Mostly wondering, “How do I start this
profile?”
Could be that I’m tired of doing the “same old, same
old”. Could be that our lives have just
gotten in the way of my creative ability.
Could be that I just need to give myself a bit of a break and stop
obsessing about the 3-4 articles that are just fanned out on my desk!
Usually a walk will break my block. They have NOT. I went and started Qigong/tai chi-I’m
enjoying it and it has added another dimension to my PT, but I’m still not
getting any further along in my actual paying work.
At first I thought-I just realized that I have about 3
months finished and ready to be sent to the editor and maybe that’s why I’m in
no particular rush to get out of my self-imposed ennui. But I’m not so sure.
Even coming up with something for this blog is sometimes an
effort in futility.
Things haven’t exactly been running very smooth of
late. Busy with the boys, busy with all
the aftermath of the break-in and extremely busy just trying to keep myself at
some sort of level of being human with all the physical therapy, pain and
running back and forth to doctors.
Maybe I pushed all that I’ve been through the last two years
too far back in the recesses of living my life and it’s coming to the surface
now?
I have to admit, I saw some photos of a similar accident in
the local paper and it had me feeling a burst of anxiety I’ve never actually
felt before-too busy trying to prove that I’m not that “bad”.
Of course, it could just be that I’m in the midst of plain
old everyday writer’s block and I need to step back, take a few deep breaths
(thank goodness I’m going to tai chi where everything is about the breathing)
and just relax.
Om.