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Saturday, December 02, 2006


I Can't Believe It!

I Can't Believe It! I am 49. I simply cannot believe I am that number. My goodness, first I find out I'm going to be a grandmother and then in the same year, I turn 49. EEK!Okay, truth be told, I'm not really freaking out-after all, my darling handsome spouse is going to be a grandfather and he's turning the big 5-0 right after the first of the year.

He's being pretty cool about it as well. I think it's because his latest stint as Mr. Mom/breadwinner (I broke my foot almost 3 months ago) has left him so exhausted he hasn't had time to really acknowledge that he's about to hit the half-century mark.What is it about birthdays that make us sometimes wax nostalgic? One of our bridesmaids, a wonderful lady that I danced through many a class and show with during our college years, and I (of course my hubby will be in attendance) are finally getting together for the first time since our wedding. I mention this in context with the first sentence of this paragraph mainly due to the fact that at this moment I can only imagine how much we will be able to catch up on during maybe a two hour dinner! Let's face it, if I consider a yearly event such as a birthday a time to reminisce imagine what not seeing a chum from pre-married woman days can evoke? I'm sure our time as sassy college students at Cal State Fullerton will be discussed. My husband didn't really know my bridesmaids very well, so I'm sure he'll listen to some of these stories with pricked up ears.

Although I've talked about my years as a dancer, my husband has only actually seen me on a stage once and that was 18 years ago. So he'll probably hear some things about me he never imagined. Or maybe he has....Another friend, whom I've known since age 5 1/2, was explaining to me that she feels more secure and in tune with herself and is actually looking forward to turning 50 next May. Of course, she's also a newlywed (hey, 3 years is pretty new) and recently changed her profession which entailed her starting her own business, so she has a lot to work on and anticipate.I can relate to the more secure feeling. Since I have been seriously trying to rejuvenate my writing career (as I told my mother-in-law a 26 year break is more than long enough) I also find myself not sweating the "small" stuff as much. I'm feeling much more like myself. I've sold several articles, had several turned down and had several responses that left me scratching my head-but the main thing here is that I am writing again.

Years ago, the six pounds I put on a year ago, would have sent me into a tailspin. Now, (especially after 3 months in a cast/boot and no exercise) I figure I'm doing all I am supposed to do to be healthy, so what's six pounds? I'm not happy about them, but I still feel as if I "clean up" rather nicely. The gray hair amidst the brunette ones are increasing, but instead of running for the bottle of dye every couple of months-I've decided I have so earned them! Yes, I will probably still color my hair, but because I want to give myself an emotional boost, not a physical one (re-read from the archives "A New Coat of Paint"). My laugh lines are there for the same reason, I've had a lot of wonderful events and some valleys to pull myself out of, and again, I've earned every single one of those beautiful creases. Along with this sense of self has come with a new found amount of strength to say "No, I can't do this". Something in my younger years I wouldn't have had the nerve to do. I wanted to be "the good one".

My experiences have taught me well. Being "the good one" takes it toll. Doing the right thing is much more pleasing. Becoming a different age is like starting a new novel. With a book you open it up, hopefully get hooked on the first page and continue with enthusiasm until the very last word. With any luck you then realize it was so entertaining that whatever ills and problems that went on around you weren't enough to take away the excitement of the time spent reading.

When you have finished with it, you get a brand new book and hope that it surpasses the last one in what you experienced. That it takes you to an entirely new level of realization that you did not think was possible. A birthday should be just the same. It should be the start of a new plot line. With any luck, the characters will be the same, but what happens to them and who joins in to make it more interesting will be full of surprises.

Love the attitude chica...makes it easy to enjoy your novel of life when you appreciate the glass half full. Sounds as if yours overfloweth!

Happy day to you...enjoy! And enjoy the reunion with your pals. I'm sure we will have a new chapter of your novel to read dedicated to this event. At least I hope so. ;)

Ciao for now...
You bet Teri! I was working a couple of other things but that comes up next!
Loved yours this week, but that's a given. I think we need to do a Candance Bushnell and find someone who will take our musings and make them into a best-seller!
Life IS like a novel. And the way we handle what's thrown at us is what reveals our character. Looks like you've got great stuff. :)
Carine, Happy 49th Birthday! I wish you many many more all in good health and much more happiness!
I will be turning 50 in does not bother me at all . It is a milestone all right...I feel great and I think I look good "for my age!" nothing bothers me, I am comfortable in my own skin, gray hair and earned wrinkles, the nice looking ones and the ugly ones! enjoy it and have a wonderful year!
Thanks for coming by! I stop by your site and have a great time.
It's amazing what fab40 has done to get us "girls" together!
Summer, I've seen your picture and I definitely agree-you look wonderful! I too am comfortable in my skin, feel I've earned how I look. To see how good my hubby looks, check out my article on about RA or on!
He's a hottie!

A very happy 49th to you! May all of your wildest dreams come true this year!

Hope you have a wonderful time with your friend...I'm sure you both will have a lot of catching up to do after so many years!

"Hubby" is definitely handsome. I belong to "Fab40", but am not too active with it. Maybe you could give me some pointers?

Take good care,
sure Lisa, what kind of pointers would you like? I wrote the book review on the front page. Check out as well, it's also for women and I have my story about ra running at least for this week.

I just put some of my blog entries onto my "fab40" blog, but how do people know to view it? Also, how do you submit articles for review? Thanks!

Take good care,
They just click onto your blog. If they comment, I usually get word via my personal e-mail. As for the articles, I submit them to Yana. She's the boss and decides what goes on the front page (like my book review right now, or "When Life Hands You Lemons", or if they go into sections-like my recipes, although she did put my mashers on the front page. Depends on the needs and the quality.
Of course the interest to the women who log onto the website as well!

Thanks for the info! I received the emails about the comments, so I know that works. Maybe I'll submit something soon, although I'm not sure what yet... ;)

Take good care,
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