Friday, January 18, 2008
I needed that. Except louder and deeper. I’m writing this after coming home from my daughter’s baby shower. It was a very nice shower. That’s not what I’m screaming on paper about at all.
This is January of a whole new year. I had such hopes for 2008. Still do. I feel that every day can and should be a new beginning. Right now, I’m warning “it” that so far I’m unimpressed with the demeanor it has shown so far.
Hopefully, by the time you read this our grandson still is able to turn one without becoming a big brother. But with our family’s history of early births you never know. Sarah was opening gifts between contractions, the baby had “dropped” and she hadn’t sleep in several nights. Not due to the baby moving (although “Aidan” is probably going to be a soccer player), but she’s rightfully worried about what’s going on in her life.
My son-in-law came home a few days ago with news no adult wants to give, or have happen, EVER-he was laid off from his underwriting job.
What a way to start a new year: Sarah has been considered “high risk” during this pregnancy. She was laid off from her underwriting job one month after she found out she was pregnant the first time. She hasn’t had the health (or time, with another high risk pregnancy) to find another job. Her husband hasn’t been able to find a stable position since that same faithful date.
Not his fault whatsoever-it’s the real estate industry.
As I sit here, the mother of two adults, I realize I’ll never stop worrying about either’s welfare and happiness. It’s in the genes. My mother still worries about my sister and I. And, let’s face it, even though my dear sister is 6 years younger, we’re not exactly little kids anymore.
Stress is running high in not only Sarah’s home but ours as well. We’re worried about my daughter’s health, the baby’s health, my son-in-law, their finances (actually the lack there of) and their future in general. They even swallowed their pride and went to the welfare office to sign up for subsidies.
Guess what? They cannot qualify for any of them because they make a slight bit more than the maximum in unemployment payments. Then the woman who was helping them suggested this piece of advice: “You know if you weren’t married you’d qualify for all the programs we have to offer”.
Both my daughter and son-in-law couldn’t believe their ears-they were being penalized by being having a family while married!
It seems when bad things happen no one and nothing is spared. In life, things can change in a single breath, in a single moment-may the next one taken in by our daughter is a good deep one. So deep that when she exhales-it’s becomes even stronger. May it be so strong that she’s able to blow away all this present sad luck and not only give birth to a healthy baby but to some better fortune.
Things have a way of turning around. I remember in my younger years having days when nothing seemed to go right. My only consolation was knowing that tomorrow brought another day. And more often than not, it did turn out better. I suspect that will happen with your family there. Good things eventually do happen to good people. I believe that.
You have my outlook-tomorrow is the chance at a whole new day!
If it gets worse..they can always move in with you...that's what parents are for. At least they have each other and they are young. Things will work out for the best.
as you said, that's what family is for.
And of course you can borrow the meme ! Enjoy !
Sarah is tired and angry because she can't control when the birth will take place, so that being said-she's just about where she should be.
Hopefully, we get to see Color Purple tomorrow night, but then again, the debut of Aidan James,would be far more exciting!
Thanks for asking, Annie!
You're in my thoughts and prayers, girlfriend. I guess we mothers have had a pretty rough going lately with our daughters. Make sure you let me know when the big day arrives.
it is improving, but too slow for my wishes.
Sarah is almost 1/2 way there-today's the little guy's first birthday.